My C.D. release party was an incredible occasion! Even though it was nearly two months ago, I have yet to forget it, and I hope many of you haven't either. I felt such excitement and wonder that night... I kept asking myself "Oh my gosh, is this a dream?" The whole experience was just simply breathtaking. But among all the excitement and nerves... .among all the lights and production, there is one special thing that happened this night that I wil never forget as long as I live.
It was 6:50 on October 22, 2008. Just ten minutes before the doors opened. I was backstage and was a complete basket-case! I kept thinking... Oh no! what if I forget my words, or what if my voice cracks, what if something goes haywire with the production end of things!... .I guess you could say I was having a minor nervous breakdown!lol By this time it was 6:55... just five more minutes and that was it... all eyes on me. I walked back to the green room to go get a drink of water. And this was when GOD just kinda slapped me in the face and was like "hello! Remember this isn't all about you!"lol I sat down in a big green leather chair and just sank down in it. I was shaking all over. I said a quick prayer asking God to calm me down. Then I looked up and there was a schedule sitting on the coffee table that caught my eye. I picked it up and only one song out of the ten that were on there grabbed my attention. I felt like such a moron!haha Here I was going insane about this whole thing and had forgotten the whole reason why I was doing it in the first place. I put the schedule back on the table and I just began to weep. I prayed, "God no matter what happens tonight, I pray that You and only You will be exalted. If only one person is changed tonight, then we have fulfilled our purpose... and help everyone, including myself, to constantly be reminded that all of this is... ... "For Your Glory".